Think, think, think
That’s gonna be me tonite. (I hope Pooh doesn’t mind that I borrowed his saying … LOL) Today at work, I was given an opportunity. They are giving me the opportunity to start working on a new project and eventually (in about 6 months) take it over … at least the programming aspect of it. After I took over the programming aspect of it, I would be in charge of all that kind of stuff … delegating tasks, coming up with way to improve the site.
YIKES!!
It would be a major increase in responsibility for me at work. I don’t know if I’m capable of that. But then again, I don’t have much confidence in myself. My employers must I guess, otherwise they wouldn’t have offered the chance to me.
This project utilizes asp. I’ve done a little bit of programming in asp, but not very much. Not much more than the basics. I have more experience in php. But they said that the asp involved in this site isn’t that advanced. It’s more database work (MSSQL … I’m used to MySQL).
This would also mean a bump in pay (not right away though). I don’t know how much … but every little bit helps.
I told them I would let them know tomorrow. I’ll have to weight the pros and cons. I’m not really sure there are that many cons … it’s more in my frame of mind and stuff. I know this is an awesome opportunity … especially since I never went to school for web programming (but I want to take classes in it … maybe the pay bump would help aid in that goal). I think it’s more about changing the way I see myself. I need to make myself see that I AM good at this … I DO have potential … I CAN have confidence in myself. Hell … I’m gonna be 29 years old this coming Sunday … I think it’s about time I started believing in myself … 
nervous