Why bother?
Mona wonders why I’m such a candy-ass … why I don’t go up and talk to guys. Well … tonite is a perfect example as to why I am the way I am … why I don’t go up to guys. We went out tonite ‘cuz Avalanche was playing. I was having a good time. One of Mona’s co-workers was out with her boyfriend and their roommate. I thought he was cute. I actually asked him to dance … and to “The Dance” no less. And he danced with me … 
Of course … as I said … I’m a candy ass. I didn’t talk to him after the dance. We did talk a little during the dance. And he gave me a hug at the end of the dance.
During their last set brake, the dj played a song that was perfect to swing dance to. I went up and asked if he swing danced. He said that he doesn’t swing dance, but that he’d dance with me when the band played. Well … I never got that chance to dance with him. He found some skinny blonde to dance with. They danced the first 4 or 5 songs of the last set and then went out again after sitting out a song or 2. I was in such a bad mood by that time that Lisa and I left.
I don’t even know why I try anymore. I actually thought I had a chance. I guess I was wrong. Mona did talk to him before they went back out on the dance floor. She said that he didn’t even really want to be with her, but he was a nice guy. I told her to tell him that he missed out with me … and to give him my phone number. I don’t expect her to actually do that. Even if she did … I doubt he’d call.
I think I’m going to find some convent to join. I’m about ready to completely give up. Like I said … why bother when some other prettier, skinnier girl is gonna come along and take him away …
lonely
You will find someone. I never found it easy to meet people in bars. I never liked bars. Too noisy, smoky, and I don’t like to dance. Plus if you drink you have to worry about driving home.
I notice you deleted my comment. Sorry if it offended you.
I’m the same way you are. I just don’t talk to the guys in social situations. I’m fine with coworkers and customers. I guess I never completely conquered my shyness. I have one customer whom I’ve been attracted to for awhile, but I never said anything because he is recently widowed (well, about a year and a half ago). Some other girl (skinnier, willing to put out) hooked him. I give up.