Way too cute not to post …

Mood: okay

I am so confused right now. Yesterday, my internet took a crap on me … right about the time that the Daytona 500 started. I figured it was the cable company’s issue. I called them, but I was on hold for around 10 minutes and then gave up and watched the race. Then I called back last nite and actually got a tech. He helped me troubleshoot, and it turned out that it was an issue with the cable splitter. I’ve only got one outlet in the living room, so it’s set up with a splitter … one cable to the tv and the other to the cable modem. When I unhooked it from the splitter and hooked it straight into the wall, then my internet was fine. But when I went through the splitter, internet no work-y.

I was going to go get another splitter today at lunch, but it turned out that the cable company was closed today due to the President’s Day holiday. WFT?!?

Tonite, I figured I’d hook it up through the splitter just to see if it worked (otherwise I can’t be online and watch tv at the same time). And lo-and-behold … the damn thing worked. I’m not gonna complain. But if it breaks again, at least I’ll know why. THEN I can go and get a new splitter.

Mood: confused

I FINALLY got my Dale Jr fan site … WxGal’s World Dale Jr back up and running. I had stopped updating it last year in June. I just lost interest in my computer. But that’s not gonna happen this year. I’m gonna keep it going all season and add more fun stuff to it as the season goes along.

It was really easy to get up too. I’m using the same database as my TruexZone.com site. I mean, Martin and Dale Jr are both running in the Nextel Cup series this year. The only difference is that I need one table for Martin’s results and one for Dale Jr’s results. Otherwise, the code is almost identical. Just some styling changes for each site and different driver and team pages. And walah (is that how that’s spelled … lol) … it’s up and running. Of course … the forum and shoutouts sections will be different.

So … that’s 2 websites launched in 2 nites. Not too shabby. Now … I just need to add those extra sections and finish up the weather page. Then I can revamp my main site and journal and who knows where I’ll go from there … LOL.

Mood: accomplished

Fuckin’ Cold!!!

Right now, it’s -21°F out with a -43°F windchill. The actual temp is 21 DEGREES BELOW ZERO!! Damn!! We WERE having a mild winter. That is ’til that damn groundhog came out of it’s hole and saw it’s shadow. LOL. That’s right … I’m blaming ‘ol Phil …

Thank goodness my car started fine. I am SO GLAD that I’ve got a garage. That car might be a POS at times … but it has never given me trouble starting when it’s been so cold out. I guess you get the good with the bad … LOL.

I’m glad I only have to go from the house to the car and the car to work. I just hope my car starts okay tonite after work after being out in the cold all day.

Mood: cold

Well … the time has finally come (and time almost ran out). Tonite … I have officially launched TruexZone.com. It’s a website dedicated to the career of NASCAR’s newest star (and future champ ), Martin Truex Jr. I still have a few sections to add (like the forum and shoutouts) and improve some existing ones (like the weather center). But other than that … it’s all ready to go.

So … if you’re a fan of Martin. Or if you just wanna check out my latest project. Go check it out. Who am I kidding? I don’t care if you like Martin or not or if you wanna check out my latest project … JUST GO THERE … LOL.

If you do take a peek, let me know if you run across any problems so that I can fix them right up. And let me know what you think of the place too.

Mood: accomplished

I went to college for 4 years and studied meteorology. I have a BS in Meteorological Studies. I worked as a “meteorologist” for 4 and a half years. I say “meteorologist” … in quotes … because I had the title, but I didn’t do anything really weather related. I was more of an office assistant than anything else. I did get to go out in the field twice for a week at a time … but there wasn’t a cloud in the sky either time.

Right now … I’m working as a web programmer. Talk about a waste of a college degree. There isn’t much weather going on in coding websites. Don’t get me wrong … I love it. If I had the money, I’d go back to school for it.

That’s the point. I am currently working as a web programmer but I have absolutely NO training in the field. Everything that I know, I’ve basically taught myself by actually doing. Now … I suppose some people would tell me that experience is better than a college degree. But I don’t know how true that is.

Maybe it’s just because I have no self-confidence. But every day I go to work, I half expect them to tell me that they’re ‘letting me go’. That I just don’t have enough experience/training to stay. That’s not a very fun or happy place to be. It sure the hell doesn’t help with my self-confidence. Yeah, I’ve been there for a little over a year and a half … but that doesn’t mean anything. I feel like I can’t do anything right at times. I keep making stupid little mistakes. And of course, I only take it out on myself … cutting myself down. And I don’t talk about it to anyone. Hell … this is the first time I’ve ever posted anything even remotely related to how I’m feeling.

I’ve got a review on Friday. Not looking forward to it. I know I’m gonna get yelled at (okay … I don’t know that they’re gonna yell at me, but that’s how I feel).

And if, god forbid, the worst does come … I’m screwed. I’ve got no savings (I used that up after I lost my last job - which I STILL think was a bullshit reason). I can’t get a meteorological-related job … since I’ve got no experience. And I doubt I’d get another web programmer job …. since I don’t have any formal training in it. I have no idea what the hell I’d do.

I REALLY shouldn’t be dwelling on the negative (especially since most of it is just in my head) … but I’ve always been a pessimist. Normally, I just hold this stuff in. Hell … I’ve been doing it since the 4th or 5th grade. But I just can’t take it any more. If I don’t find an outlet somewhere … whether it’s talking to my friends or just posting here … I have to get it out somehow. Otherwise, I’m afraid I’ll completely lose it.

If you’ve made it this far, you’re a brave person … LOL. I’m sorry you had to read this drivel. But like I said … I had to get it out. I don’t know if it helped. But it can’t have hurt …

Is that too much to ask?

Mood: empty